You.

Since I have been thinking about you a lot, I reckon it would be great if I could write all my thoughts down... instead of drowning my friends with everything I want to mention about you.

I remember vividly how you smiled at me when we first met. It was not that kind of flirtatious smile but one that is so friendly and genuine  that it looked almost like you were smiling to a little child.

I did not expect you to look how you actually do. You look so young for someone in your profession.

Your confidence simply shines through whatever you do. You do not have the most handsome face. You do not have the perfect physique. But you look just right. You look comfortable in your own skin.

You are efficient at work but you never have to rush anything. Everything looks perfectly under your control.

You know what people might have mistaken about you and yet you do not care about that at all.

You are polite to everyone and literally, everyone.

You have the brightest smile I have ever seen on any person's face.

You know what you want to achieve and you are doing your best with all your determination.

You are confident and yet humble.

You are frank and yet sophisticated.

Up to the present moment, you are basically everything I want in a guy.

I like you.

people change.

they all had faith in my ability.
but now my best friend...
my mentor...
everyone...
everyone thinks i can't do anything right now.
the only one i have is myself right now.
im gonna make it.

i'm now a happier person

i can't believe i have come to the day, finally, when i can say i have become a happier person. what happened was really terrible, which is a really good friend telling me that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore. not that i think she's a terrible person but i have to say that over the years she had great influence on my emotions and it was not a good one. i liked her as a friend so much that i tried really hard to be the cheerful one in the friendship while everyone knew i was pretty sad all the time... simply because she is more depressed than i am in general. but now i realise that really sucked all the energy and personality out of me. now that she's not around me anymore, i feel so much happier despite losing a highly intelligent and capable friend. i mean, the moment i read what she wrote to me, i instantly burst into tears. I cried non-stop for like 2 hours until my eyes hurt, literally. and then it got me thinking, do i really need her in my life so much that im wasting time on crying over her leaving me? i spent some time looking online for quotes that could get me back on track again and pull myself together. i have read quite a few good ones but in the end i just came to realise that... now is all i have and it leads to the future... do i wanna spend even more time on someone in the past while i have so much to do for my future. and really, what kinda mood to be in is a personal choice and the most important choice. I want to be happy. That's it. I don't need anything that upsets me. No. And then, I have truly become a happier person. :D

Just a few thoughts...

I have been having this ever-lasting burning sensation all over my head (skull?) for the past few days. I mean, yes I am a procrastinator but no I don't procrastinate this much when I'm sane. This is driving me nuts. I have this headache that stops me from thinking.

長大

原來長大是這麼痛苦的一件事。

想保持住滿有童真的心，又怕於大人的世界中受傷害。

想堅強起來表現成熟一點，又覺得撐下去好累。

明明自己想做的事就在眼前，還是不敢放手一搏。

因為各種對現實的考慮，不敢勇敢去愛想愛的人。

我可以任性一下又得到大家的原諒嗎？

太掛念你

想你想到忘記了自己了啦.

哭

還是哭了起來。
我是真的覺得自己可悲又可憐。
我想下一秒就忘記你。

分離

很難接受沒有我的你原來過得很好的事實。
放不下的又是我，又只是我。

一見鍾情

要多麽好運才可遇到一個與你互相一見鍾情的人?
錯過了這一次又不知要等多幾十年。
上天如此美麗的安排二人愛上對方，兩人卻又同時是如此天理不容的錯配。

患得患失。

遲了六年。

再看<<那些年>>就更是感動。我們都曾熱血的追求什麼人，又默默的接受什麼人的好意。我不是沈佳宜，但就有你一直的關心照顧。

熱血的是我們曾多晚通電話到天明。
熱血的是你以他的名義為我安排生日會。
熱血的是你會讓我佔用你的儲物櫃。

當年我默默愛着什麼人我已忘記了。
我卻記得你對我的好。
我們曾經互有好感，好像在等另一方說些什麼，又多年都沒有說什麼，言而大家彷彿都明白對方的心意。

現在我衷心希望你和她會一直幸福下去。