it's out of control.

It would always be nice if I could make everything under my control. But, it's impossible to get control of everything in reality. I can't control the way he thinks...at least. I don't understand what's so important whether I go out with him. He clearly knows that he's not my type. Why should he be mad at me once I refuse to go out with him? I do deserve some rights to control what I'm gonna do and what I'm not, right? It's such a depression to face someone who acts this way. ARGH. I do treat him as one of my best friends and I tend to help him with his difficulties. He just doesn't appreciate what the hell I do for him. What he cares is just whom I've been hanging out with and... ...who's Mr.J mentioned on my xanga. HEY! You said that we are FRIENDS. We are just friends. Why are you trying so hard to get control of my life? I feel so tired to be around you. OMG!!